I was sitting there, thinking this thought which was, in a way, quite sinful. And then, suddenly, it hits me that my wife is about to start teaching her Scripture class. I hurriedly start praying for her, the kids and the truth of the message that she'll be teaching them. All the while, I'm feeling very weird about making such prayers, because of the immediately preceding thought.
Such contradiction in such a short space!
So after I pray, I want to continue thinking along the sinful lines that I had been previously. I genuinely wanted to. I really needed to distract myself with something productive to give that thought room to leave.
Jesus, I be a messed up follower.