Especially when it's having to adjust to the idea that there are peers around me who are significantly more gifted than I am. It's simply not an admission that I'm used to making. I've never felt that I have to or should think that. Now, I'm in a context where I'm forced to deal with this as fact. It's difficult after 27 years.
I make no comment about whether this ought to be my perception, only that it's been my perception.